Don’t Look back in October
“I wanted my family to be proud of me and they were. But my pride in their pride wasn’t enough for me to fake it well.” Continue reading Don’t Look back in October
Category: Life
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Catching Crumbs
After a while, a lonely while learning never to react, I started to spend all my time just waiting…. Continue reading Catching Crumbs
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The Devil You Know
I knew then, I was dealing with a monster, not a person Continue reading The Devil You Know
Death by Indifference
Saturday « I was up early with the birds. Just want to be in your arms right now my love ». Seen. No reply. I call you 3 hours later. You don’t answer, though I see you go online as soon as the call drops. Your phone has a personal tune for my calls and you will have seen the missed call notification. You don’t call … Continue reading Death by Indifference
Narcissus 2
Care cant be put on hold. Its either there, or it aint. When we first met, you appeared so attentive and caring. I thought I’d met my prince charming. Mistook your questions for interest…we had so much in common. But you were harvesting pertinent information. Today you’re supposedly concerned about what I ate, though tomorrow you wont think about whether I even saw a plate. … Continue reading Narcissus 2
Bury me softly
You can almost touch the moment you realise whats going on. But not quite. That sensation of thoughts swirling around your head… Can’t join them all up. You know what it means, but can explain nothing. Suddenly it all starts to make abstract sense. Everything you tried to keep up with. To follow and make good. Like a dog denied a reward for the usual … Continue reading Bury me softly
Women of Faith
Share your strength, from the epicentre of the light. Continue reading Women of Faith
Avoidance
Cook a third meal (for later in the week and never mind the lack of fridge space) Continue reading Avoidance
19 Summers
“19 years since I glimpsed you for the first time
19 years since you made me a mum
19 years of grappling with my own mortality
19 summers since I’ve loved you until I’m numb”
Continue reading 19 Summers
Frugal Feasting – Part 2 : make that chicken work for you!
“Anyone else play the ‘what would be your last meal’ game for fun (black humour reigns chez moi)? So whilst my kids take ages choosing between dishes and then negotiating 2 starters and basically way more food than they could possibly stomach, its chicken all the way for me” Continue reading Frugal Feasting – Part 2 : make that chicken work for you!
Frugal Feasting – Part 1 : starters & sides
Yummy stuff that won’t break the bank, isn’t difficult to cook up and should see you through the ‘short’ season with full bellies and satisfied taste buds. Continue reading Frugal Feasting – Part 1 : starters & sides
Scent & Compatibility
That moment you inhale their essence for the first time. Drink in the odourless perfume, Emitting scent signals beyond the mask of visual cues. The sink or swim of compatibility, wafting by. Perfume Continue reading Scent & Compatibility
A Silent Jolt
“Your loyalty was only ever determined by opportunity..” Continue reading A Silent Jolt
Reality denied
“You make no ‘plans’ but everything falls into place around the dates that suit you, whilst keeping all of the significant players in your theatrical life apart. Panic attacks and illness are your response to awkward questions…..” Continue reading Reality denied
Prudence
Life is a risky business. Any path can lead you to a dead end or might be paved with gold. I’ve always envied people without ambition or curiosity (as I feel it). Childhood friends who marry the guy or girl down the road and buy a house close enough to walk to their parents’ home…..and they do pop in….every day…just for a chat. They often go … Continue reading Prudence
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Lottery winning lemon trees..
“I’m a virtuous hour into fantasy family building and benevolent gestures before the daydream starts to creep beyond the entirely necessary or charitable boundary…” Continue reading Lottery winning lemon trees..
Dun
Sudoku, faut cu Thats really all I can write. Police phares calling My mind is falling Failing. Gaslights burning Stomach churning. How to explain The pain. I talk about reflecting But I’m dun with it. Sista’s fecked it. Im tired of this confusion. Dun with your pollution. This ain’t love. Scrabble you say? F*ing take it away. Take your fake sudoku intellectualism And stick it … Continue reading Dun
Fragility -A day in the life of humanity
24 hours and 3 unsolicited encounters with selfish opportunism and human kindness have broken and rebuilt my fragile sense of security. My tears mark both. Continue reading Fragility -A day in the life of humanity
18 Summers
I love your courage
In the face of your difference
Though I see your pain in solitude.
I wish it could be easier for you
Continue reading 18 Summers
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Fay’s Story
When she awoke to the truth, Fay was thirty-one
Browbeaten, confused and a mum
Despite a decade of devaluation
She kept schtum for fear of humiliation
And crawled into a private pit of ‘make-do’. Continue reading Fay’s Story
