If i had been chosen
I wonder where I would now be?
If I had been chosen
Would this still be me?
You left me, unchosen
The problem, for all to see.
Too numb to fight you
Instead I fought free.
I left without challenge
and the label followed me.
Through studies
Through travels
Through marriage
and children
Through successes
Through struggles
Through celebrations
and all those muddles.
The bête noir I remained
Free, but unchosen all the same.
For decades
4 decades
Treading water
In that murky sea.
Never good enough
Never successful enough.
Never pretty enough.
or funny enough
Not confident enough
Just not enough.
Until this day
Aujourd’hui
I can finally see
That nothing can flourish
Until I choose me.