

Catching Crumbs
After a while, a lonely while learning never to react, I started to spend all my time just waiting…. Continue reading Catching Crumbs

The Devil You Know
I knew then, I was dealing with a monster, not a person Continue reading The Devil You Know

I Choose Me
“nothing can flourish until I choose me” Continue reading I Choose Me

Don’t Look back in October
“I wanted my family to be proud of me and they were. But my pride in their pride wasn’t enough for me to fake it well.” Continue reading Don’t Look back in October

Mrs Saffer’s Ginger Cake
“I managed 10 minutes of domestic bliss : baking with the correct ingredients; without a deadline; and plugged in to Netflix, before number 1 son brought the shitty (excuse the terrible pun) news : “mum, I think the toilet’s blocked” Continue reading Mrs Saffer’s Ginger Cake

Narcissus 2
Care cant be put on hold. Its either there, or it aint. When we first met, you appeared so attentive and caring. I thought I’d met my prince charming. Mistook your questions for interest…we had so much in common. But you were harvesting pertinent information. Today you’re supposedly concerned about what I ate, though tomorrow you wont think about whether I even saw a plate. … Continue reading Narcissus 2

Bury me softly
You can almost touch the moment you realise whats going on. But not quite. That sensation of thoughts swirling around your head… Can’t join them all up. You know what it means, but can explain nothing. Suddenly it all starts to make abstract sense. Everything you tried to keep up with. To follow and make good. Like a dog denied a reward for the usual … Continue reading Bury me softly

Women of Faith
Share your strength, from the epicentre of the light. Continue reading Women of Faith

Avoidance
Cook a third meal (for later in the week and never mind the lack of fridge space) Continue reading Avoidance

19 Summers
“19 years since I glimpsed you for the first time
19 years since you made me a mum
19 years of grappling with my own mortality
19 summers since I’ve loved you until I’m numb”
Continue reading 19 Summers

Frugal Feasting – Part 1 : starters & sides
Yummy stuff that won’t break the bank, isn’t difficult to cook up and should see you through the ‘short’ season with full bellies and satisfied taste buds. Continue reading Frugal Feasting – Part 1 : starters & sides

Scent & Compatibility
That moment you inhale their essence for the first time. Drink in the odourless perfume, Emitting scent signals beyond the mask of visual cues. The sink or swim of compatibility, wafting by. Perfume Continue reading Scent & Compatibility

A Silent Jolt
“Your loyalty was only ever determined by opportunity..” Continue reading A Silent Jolt

Reality denied
“You make no ‘plans’ but everything falls into place around the dates that suit you, whilst keeping all of the significant players in your theatrical life apart. Panic attacks and illness are your response to awkward questions…..” Continue reading Reality denied

Prudence
Life is a risky business. Any path can lead you to a dead end or might be paved with gold. I’ve always envied people without ambition or curiosity (as I feel it). Childhood friends who marry the guy or girl down the road and buy a house close enough to walk to their parents’ home…..and they do pop in….every day…just for a chat. They often go … Continue reading Prudence

Dun
Sudoku, faut cu Thats really all I can write. Police phares calling My mind is falling Failing. Gaslights burning Stomach churning. How to explain The pain. I talk about reflecting But I’m dun with it. Sista’s fecked it. Im tired of this confusion. Dun with your pollution. This ain’t love. Scrabble you say? F*ing take it away. Take your fake sudoku intellectualism And stick it … Continue reading Dun

Fragility -A day in the life of humanity
24 hours and 3 unsolicited encounters with selfish opportunism and human kindness have broken and rebuilt my fragile sense of security. My tears mark both. Continue reading Fragility -A day in the life of humanity

Congratulations Evelien!
I am a self proclaimed Sex And The City FAN with a capital everything and proud of it. I once opted out of Christmas just to plug in to my box-set in heavenly peace. What a blissful day that was. I danced around the flat in my pjs every time the intro played. I cried tears of joy and laughed my little socks off all day. My only concern … Continue reading Congratulations Evelien!

Narcissus
Bloodsucker. Inhaling the energy from my core, Diverting my focus to your war, Against honesty and care. Fuck your rancid morals. Lie alone in your self-serving lair. But you won’t, will you…. Unmasked, but not startled, Prince charming will simply resurrect, Cast his ravenous eye to the next page, Waltz his chosen victim into the golden cage, Liposuction her very persona, Entrap her with mirrored desires. Its bile. Parasite. … Continue reading Narcissus

“I learned long ago, never to wrestle with a pig. You get dirty, and besides, the pig likes it.” George Bernard Shaw
What is it that makes you cling on, when every hair on the back of your neck is standing up screaming at you to RUN? Or is it, rather, that you just cannot, ever, walk away without: a) knowing everything that there is to know about why you’re ‘losing’ and; b) some community / public recognition of your ‘wronged’ status, following you as you exit left ? Focussing squarely on emotional attachment as experienced … Continue reading “I learned long ago, never to wrestle with a pig. You get dirty, and besides, the pig likes it.” George Bernard Shaw